Direction...

I am taking a break from what seems will be my new Friday routine {Or at least every other Friday} I find myself newly without "my Vikki". For those of you who don't know about Vikki.... She has been my cleaning savior this past year and for the 2 years before Vikki I had Estera  {a true angel on earth}. But the economy and other factors {my being a full-time SAHM as one of them} has brought me to this place where.... well I am going to have to *gulp* clean for myself. Oh now... If you do not know me, I am not a princess. I am fully capable {okay, well not 'fully' capable} of cleaning my own home. I grew up with some serious household chores with a seriously, fastidious clean Mother. I have cleaned other people homes for money and I paid my rent living in Houston with "The Boys" {Hubby, his Brother and their friend TJ} by cleaning out 3 story 3,000sq foot Town Home every week. I know what it takes and what to do, I just.... I can find better things to do {including, stopping mid-kitchen to write this post} and that is my cleaning downfall {ADD}.

But my cleaning situation while a "new direction" is not why I paused to write this post. I am increasingly discontented with the direction and quality of my blog.  Oh I don't mind that I am doing a few giveaways, It is always a product that I really believe in -- although that was not my intention or direction when I started out.  I am not so ridged that I cannot let this blog evolve and become what it will ,but I cannot "sell out" to appease the world of Mommy Bloggers and their readers.  When I look back upon this journey and re-read our adventures I want to be proud of the writing and filling it with fluff.... Frankly it is starting to turn my stomach.  No offense to my mommy blogger following. If you are about giveaways and reviews and all the other cute ideas and daily blogs that are all the fashion at the moment - I enjoy them on your blogs! I get a kick out of Wordless Wednesday and Flashback Friday and a number of other ideas that I started to implement here. Frankly Wordless Wednesday and Flashback Friday, I think , are brilliant ideas. At least Flashback Friday forces the writer to look back, reflect and share. I read some poignant posts during Flashback Friday _ I have also read my share of hysterical Flashback Friday posts.... But I feel like a cop out when I cannot sit down and muse about my life, and it's a full on, or share my daily mishaps, and there is at least on a day, or just pour my guts out about how in love I am, or how hard it is, or how grateful I am.  mymommystory.com is supposed to be just that - My Mommy Story.... and of late it is anything but.....

Please bear with me, I am as always perfecting imperfect.... But I will get back on track.  It does not help that I have not picked up a book in I cannot say how long? Six months.... a year possibly??  I love books, I love reading, I love the written word. As much as I love water, as much as I love my children and my husband, I love books. Maybe the next time I take time for myself I should take time to read. I know it will make me a better writer, which is always a goal of mine.  So maybe that is my gimmick from now on, between my favorite books, for kids, self and teens, I will team up with The SassMaster from Don't Come to my Circus and Try to Wear the Top Hat. She has a page dedicated to books to be 'read aloud' and books everyone should read. Maybe I can coax her into teaming up with me each month and having some sort of "book club" or review each month - A simple assignment - A Children's book.....

I am taking a new direction here - or maybe returning to my original path, but I will no longer fill my blog with fluff and count that {in my head} as meaningful contribution to My Mommy Story.

So I will finish my PICA story because I owe it to you all and more important I owe it to myself. I will share my insecurity around the moms at preschool because I owe it to SassMaster who is always eager to share in my life and make me feel like someone out there cares what I have to say, what I think and validates my crazy {Thank You Sass!!!}

It's Fall, my favorite time of year {well is is Fall back home at least} so in honor of my favorite tradition and the foliage I miss so very much, I am turning over a new leaf.... Let's see how long Miss ADD can stay the course before I'm off in another direction.